| out of body |

People talk about being 'out of it', a phrase that hints at real out-of-body experiences are different. I had my first around the age of fourteen, when I ‘floated’ through the bottom of my bed and encountered a coffin-sized amber crystal, which I immediately recognised as 'me'. I had a number of subsequent experiences, including trying (successfully) to pass through walls, see myself in a mirror while disembodied (unsuccessful), and one experience where I watched as my brother's dreams appeared like a cloud of images around his head. My experience is shared by 10% of the population, including those who have had near-death experiences, and I was recently interviewed for a qualitative study on the subject.

There are a few current theories about out-of-body experiences. Psychologist Susan Blackmore maintains that we can temporarily deconstruct the sense of self to reconstruct it at a personal location outside - rather than within - the personal image of the body. This 'extreme depersonalisation' can perhaps be triggered by intolerable experiences, where we simply remove our 'selves' from the physical reality of the unbearable. I favour other more recent research under consciousness studies (such as that conducted by anaesthesiologist Stuart Hameroff and mathematician Roger Penrose) that suggests the mind may be produced by quantum processes that use the sub-atomic structures within brain cells, a theory that allows for the possibility of consciousness existing both inside and beyond the physical brain. Philosopher David Chalmers even hints at a theory revisited after years in the wilderness - that the mind could be a separate entity in its own right. In the UK, the Horizon Research Foundation has set up a study across 25 hospitals to explore near-death phenomena. Although they have been very real for me, I remain uncertain whether out-of-body experiences are evidence of life beyond physical existence or a product of physical processes. Maybe both are true.

For me, occurrences are now less frequent; the last - around 1997 - was triggered at a moment of extreme anxiety. Usually, they are pleasant and exhilarating, and often happen at the borders of sleeping and waking. There is no break in consciousness between exiting the body and returning to it, and I remain acutely aware throughout the experience.